January 2011
Hanging out with my sisters at home until Andy’s ready to meet up. They did their makeup and are celebrating with alcohol, but are choosing to stay home. Jagerbombs and Champagne. Hahaha.
December 2010
Got a 1.5 TB external hard drive for Christmas and I’m loading it up right now. There was literally no memory left on my Mac. This is awesome.
In a fantastic mood today! Things I could go for/do right now: Kick somebody’s ass to the Ladyhawke’s music, bake, see Andy (which I am going to), get lunch with Liz, meet up with Zac, consume tons of alcohol, dance, make incredible mixes, sing, blow-dry my hair, smell good, smirk, wait, anticipate.
This is going to be a great day. Yes!
Someone I dated earlier in the year named Joe just texted me this: “You should be here. You are.” No idea what that is supposed to mean.
Apartment hunting with Liz tomorrow (well, today) at 11 am, and then hanging out with Andy and introducing him to/listening to the most incredibly song/remix ever. And then we’re going to a party… good feelings, relaxing sensations, drinking, and hopefully an incredible New Year’s Eve.
What an incredible night this is so far. Ah. Such a good day. Can’t wait for tomorrow, too.
Possibilities for tonight:
1) Mike Duffey’s with Ryan, and then his, Dean, and Brandon’s house to drink
2) Dancing and drinking at Upstairs with Chloe and Dvdn
3) More drinking
What a quest! This shit is hard to find.
Facebook chat with Andy about sending drunk texts
Andy: i'm sure you'll get more of those tonight
Me: hahaha, should be interesting. hopefully i too will be drunk
Andy: you love it. oh yeah! get drunk and we can send each other inappropriate texts, it won't be just me
Me: hahahaha, okay! sounds great!
Andy: yessssssss. maybe we can get into some drunk sexting if we're lucky
Me: o0o0o0oh, one can only hope
God, why am I overanalyzing this already? I live way too much in the future. I need to stop. Thank god I’m just kind of insane and the guys I date most likely don’t have the same thought process at all. I feel like you’re too good for me but I know you’re not. Neither one of us is too good for the other. We’re into each other and that’s that. I guess. UGH. Too...
AGHHHHHH. STOP THIS NONSENSE. You are driving me insane.
“I want to be new to you.”
I want you.
I smell really good right now. If I was someone else, I’d want me.
Ah, I love Rob so much. Hah, brother and sister.
Might just go to Kaldi’s again today and do some reading.
rosewater words →
onlinejournals:
I want to shower sweet, rosewater words into your ears, onto your head, amidst your hair. I want to say all the loving, warm things that bubble into my throat and fingers but I wonder if you’d like to hear them. Or, not simply if you’d like to hear them, but how often you’d like to hear them. Too much sugar makes for bad teeth. Moreover, I wonder how much I’d like to say these...
Ugh, whatever.
Anita horoscope for today:
Samantha sweetheart, compliments may have been rare lately - even if you have been trying your best to please someone dear to you or others. The mood today changes things somewhat, with this joyful mood anything good will happen to really surprise you. Your efforts have been noticed and appreciated so make room for good times to keep rolling. It is a step closer to your...
More texting with Andy:
“Come over and we will fool around. Pretyy sutle rigt”
and then right after that…
“Pretty subtle right”.
Hahahahaha.
Andy texted me just now and asked me what I was doing. I told him and then asked what he was doing and he responded, “Hanging with my brisk, drinkng. Thinkin of toy”. He meant “you”.
Hahaha. So fucking cute.
Portions For Foxes is the most fitting song for my mood right now. You make me feel so good.
Just saw a status that he posted 8 hours ago that said, “What a night. Goodnight Facebook.” Ahhhhh.
Just got back from hanging out and spending the night with Andy. He is so cute. So goddamn cute. Details later.
Oh my god. So fucking nervous and excited. We’re just going to be hanging out and smoking. So, so, so excited to spend time with him. My stomach feels like it is eating itself. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
As for you… who am I kidding? I know you’ll be back. Too many unexpected things (and not unexpected) happen for you to not.
So, I was thinking about my deal breakers when it comes to men and dating. Some of mine are:
-Bad teeth
-Unkempt nails
-Inability to appreciate, understand, and use sarcasm
datebynumbers:
This song makes me feel like a...
“And you feel hopeless and homeless and loss in the haze of the wine.” Connotations.